I really should learn my lesson and not go back and read the old posts.. but on those “dates” that I know there were big things happening I can’t help it. Today was another milestone… A year ago we were in ICU. Kerrie had the first stroke, but was still able to speak slightly.. and was seeing things that weren’t there. I didn’t write about that in the post, but I remember.. I remember the doctor she saw eating hamburgers.. the man she saw standing in the corner of the room.. and I remember her trying to tell me NOT to sit in a chair when I went to sit…

First, let me say this is not a story about Kerrie.. just want to make that clear, so that if someone doesn’t want to read something that doesn’t mention Kerrie they don’t read any further. This is just a funny story that I thought other people might enjoy. If you know Nate and Noelle, you will enjoy it even more.. but may still get a good laugh out of this even if I am the only person you know in the story. Maybe this is one of those stories that’s only funny if you were actually there, but I am sure that anyone with any experience in the military will…

Hello Everyone, What a weekend…… packing Jenn up for her move to Virginia….. for a single women she sure has a lot of stuff. I am standing on record for this one…. next time she moves someone else will have to pack. I’m just getting too old for this 🙂 It was a sentimental weekend too. Lots of memories of Kerrie. What she did to help Jenn move the last time, where they sat at a restaurant one night when she was visiting (right across from where we were sitting when we went out to eat one night). What she said or did or wanted to do. We sure felt…

The Bone Marrow transplant was a year ago today… We had just finished everything right around now, Kerrie and I were holding hands.. Ron, Mom, Dad and Joyce were all there.. and we were all so happy and full of hope. Today was a much different day. I heard this song, on my drive home from work, and it made me think of Kerrie.. I love you Kerrie. MY IMMORTAL I’m so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave ‘Cause your presence still lingers here And it won’t leave me alone These wounds won’t…

The countdown to the transplant started a year ago today. Kerrie had spent a few weeks at home, had just checked back in to Henry Ford and the countdown to Day Zero had begun. We were in her room, I was trying to hook up her DVD Player and VCR, they were starting her on her Chemo for the transplant… and she was complaining that her headache was getting worse. That damn headache… “Kerrie, it’s a side effect of the Spinal Tap.”.. “Kerrie, it’s a side effect of the chemo.”…That damn headache. Kerrie and I had a brief talk about the transplant and she made me promise that if it…

When Kerrie was a Junior in High School ( and I had been out of high school a few years) we had an exchange student, from Germany, come live with us for a year. Axel was a very special person to us and Kerrie and I always considered him our brother. Kerrie visited him the year after she graduated from High school, I’ve seen him twice in the past two years ( we hadn’t seen each other in 18 years.. but it was like no time had passed between us).. and I took Mom to see him in January of 2006. A few days after Kerrie passed away, Mom and…

Hello Everyone, Two months today……….. seems like it’s not a long time, but it’s been so long. I went to see Kerrie today. Her gravesite is covered with grass. It’s hard to see it now from the road. Soon the headstone will be in place and it will be easier to pick out, now just a slightly raised mound of green. I put some flowers near her and talked to her a while. Then called Jenn and we shared some moments together at 3:30. Hard to think of what was happening at that time just a few weeks ago. I was reflecting today on what has transpired over the past…

It’s been a rough morning.. haven’t been able to stop thinking about Kerrie and that last morning when we talked to her about the treatment not working. She wanted to keep trying, but Mom and the doctor had to keep telling her it wasn’t working. She just laid back and resigned herself to it. I wish I could just erase that whole memory.. today it is haunting me for some reason. I don’t want this whole post to be depressing, so I will try to just wipe away the tears and tell you my news… I’m moving to Virginia. On May 1st I was asked to take a job at…

Hello Everyone,  Today is a special day for many, lots of things to remember. Many memorials to those lost six years ago. I’ve listened to several broadcasts today as people talked about their feelings and where they were and what they were doing. I remember being at work and watching it on a TV and thinking…….. this is it, we are at war and when I saw the Pentagon hit I was sure that it was just the beginning of more massive waves of attacks. Thank God we were spared any more here, but so much has happened since. I feel blessed that I have had a niece and nephew…

Hello Everyone, Been reading all the comments about the sunflowers. Isn’t it funny how we see them now and immediately think of Kerrie. Worked this weekend, and on Sunday I had the strongest feeling that she was there with me. I could even see her, she was in her work scrubs. I would be waiting for an elevator and she was next to me. One time I was in a hurry to get to one of the units and the elevator went down instead of up. When it started up it stopped on the 3rd floor, Kerrie’s floor. That unit is empty now and when the door opened of course…