Thursday September 27, 2007
Hello Everyone,
Two months today……….. seems like it’s not a long time, but it’s been so long.
I went to see Kerrie today. Her gravesite is covered with grass. It’s hard to see it now from the road. Soon the headstone will be in place and it will be easier to pick out, now just a slightly raised mound of green. I put some flowers near her and talked to her a while. Then called Jenn and we shared some moments together at 3:30. Hard to think of what was happening at that time just a few weeks ago.
I was reflecting today on what has transpired over the past year and the past few weeks. So many things have happened, contacts with people who have been out of touch for so long, people brought together through this website, people who are changed, who think differently, who have new purposes or are trying to find a purpose. I am one of those. I don’t know yet what I will focus on, but I do know that there is something out there that I will find that will become my challange, my passion.
I have heard from so many people that have been out of touch for ages. It is so heartwarming. It is also so wonderful to hear from the people who have been here through all of this and continue to be in touch. I don’t always call or even answer messages right away, but please know that I appreciate any contact. Sometimes I am busy doing many of the tasks that need to be done, sometimes I just don’t have the energy yet to reach out. But I will…. it is coming little by little.
I took all of Kerrie’s medications into the pharmacy this week. I had so hoped to find a place for them, and it could still happen, but most likely they will have to be destroyed. What a waste, what a loss, all those pills, liquids, that might help someone. In the next week or two I will take all the supplies that were left to an organization in Detroit that will distribute them where needed. I would love to have company on that trip. Donna, Sandy, Laura, Deb, or any of Kerrie’s (or mine) old friends who have a day off and some free time (yeah, right) and would like to go with me give me a call.
Take care everyone, I think of you all so often,
Love You
Joan
9 Comments
Jeannine
Thanks for the update Joan. I can’t believe it’s been two months already. Want you to know you aren’t alone – even though we don’t post much there are so many of us who check the site daily and think of you often. Love you!
Louise Marie
Joan,
Yesterday we had SUNFLOWERS in our chapel flower arrangement! Each time they appear, I think of Kerrie and all of you. I can only say a “ditto” to Jeannine’s email. Know you are remembered in my daily prayer. God bless you!
Love,
Rosie
Dear Joan,
My thoughts were with you, Jenn, Ron and Steve on Thursday. I think of Kerrie often and see in color doing something when she was little. The memories flash by and I know Kerrie is near.
I walked last Saturday for the Heart Walk the monies going for Heart and Stroke research. I plan on walking again on October 11 for the Light The Night Walk for the Leukemia and Lymphona Society’s two mile evening walk.
I wish I lived closer so I could help you and support you in person. I’m only a phone call away and you are always in my thoughts and prayers.
Love,
Rosie
J
Joan,
I hate being so far away, but I swear, I’d be there for you. I know, people are odd in the way that they come out of the woodwork when you need them, and they don’t seem like they are always there… but they are… Glad to hear there is some “normalcy” coming back, slow but sure… it’s all ok. I’m with you spiritually, I mean it. I’m there huggin, holding your hand, nodding. I’m not saying much, because, well, I have some questions myself. But I’m here! 🙂
With all my love,
J
Deb Kayga
Hey There—I think of you all so often! Next time your on the elevator, please give a quick stop for me–I miss it so! St. Joes is goingo.k. but I don’t think it will ever feel like home–and I’m pretty sure no other hospital would either! I don’t know what it is about that stupid run down no supply place that I miss so much? Let me know what day you are planning on going down–if shedule permits I would love to join you! Deb
Laura Cecil
Joan,let me know when you’re going too. Laura