Sometimes I forget… Something will happen and I will think, “Hey, I need to call Kerrie and tell her about this.” The other day I was in Vegas.. walked by Binion’s and thought of how much Kerrie loves to watch the poker games on TV. They hold the world championship there.. I thought to myself “I really need to take a picture of Binion’s for Kerrie”.. then, as I raised the camera, I remembered.. Thought maybe I’d get lucky if I went into Binion’s, or Ceasar’s Palace ( her favorite and she was always really lucky there).. but I guess she was busy elsewhere 🙂 No help at all, but…

                                    THE POWER OF THIS SITE Dear Family and Friends, I knew that a lot of you were logging on frequently and I knew the number of visitors was increasing daily and yesterday I decided to jot down the number just to see how many. Almost 100 since yesterday morning! Kerrie, do you believe that? I can see your face right now, you are smiling and shaking your head in disbelief, just like when Jenn and I would read you the posts and it was as if you couldn’t quite fathom that so many people cared. Looks like they still do kiddo! Thanks so much everyone, it means so much to see and…

Today HAS been a rotten day. Spent most of the afternoon laying on my bed and trying not to re-live everything from July 27th. No matter how hard I tried to shut it out, the pictures just kept popping back in my head. My heart was pounding so much, at 3:30pm, that it was difficult to breath.. and I wondered what Mom, Dad and Ron were doing… but just couldn’t bring myself to get off the bed and call them. I will call them later tonight… I’ve been thinking about everyone today, and wondering if anyone but our family knew what today was, but mostly I’ve just been thinking about…

One month today…… it’s been a difficult day today…….so many memories. Many good ones, but many not so good. I keep thinking of things I want to tell Kerrie or ask her and then realize I can’t. Then realize I can and talk to her awhile. I wish I had tried to get her to tell me how she was feeling a little more. It was difficult for her to verbalize, but maybe I could have helped her find the words. So many unspoken things those last months. It must have been so difficult for her. But I have to remember that she is ok now. Please bear with us,…

Mom was here for a few days.. unfortunately, Big Bash got rained out Monday night so she didn’t get to see this event and I didn’t have to put her to work in a food stand or doing the prize drawing. We’ve rescheduled for tonight, but Mom can’t be here. We had a nice visit and, as Mom said in her post in the Gallery, Cristel and I told lots of stories about Blue Lake, WMU and Cedar Point.. We read the posts and wonder WHEN Kerrie will come to us! There was one day that Dad felt sure Kerrie was sitting next to him in his car, but I…

Just finished reading some of the comments, from Mom’s post yesterday…  Jason.. as always, you say those amazing things when they are most needed. That’s why I love you so much!!I know we haven’t talked, or written, but I’ve known you were there the whole time. The support you’ve given me has meant a lot.. the support you’ve given my mother… The best thing you’ve ever done for me. Teena, you won’t be seeing any pictures of Mom and I at the waterpark.  If she comes to visit she will be put to work at something… BIG BASH. Ahh.. the Cedar Point and Geauga Lake Employees are all smiling now. …

Hello Everyone, I’m sitting here at Kerrie’s computer writing this post and remembering how I could hear her at night as she hammered away at her homework, or emails, or games. Her fingers would fly and the keys would tap tap so fast. And her foot. Those of you who came to see her at home or at the hospital would comment on how her left foot would be always moving. I could feel it through the floor when she’d sit here. Tap, tap, tap, tap, that foot would be going like crazy. Was it a habit? probably. Must have relieved some tension. Sometimes, when I’m lying in bed I…

I’ve come to the page every day, but have not been able to post. A few days ago I sat in Kerrie’s room, and tried to write, but may hands were shaking and couldn’t see through the tears.  Even know I am finding it difficult.. but not writing seems like I am being unfaithful to Kerrie. I miss her terribly.. every day. She sits and smiles at me, from her picture frame, and that often makes it difficult to get work done… but she’s going to stay there, on my table, smiling at me while I work. I’ve been thinking a lot about her.. and things many people may never…

Hello Everyone, Another busy day is drawing to a close, at least for me. Jenn just got back to Ohio and will be working tonight, probably late. She may be settling in just as I am about to get up to start my day….5am to 5pm for me tomorrow. At least this time of year it is light at one end of the day at least. We went to see Kerrie today. The gravesite is beginning to settle and will probably soon be ready for grass seed. It seemed strange to be there. But we both realized that she isn’t really there, she’s everywhere, visiting and looking and checking on…

Dear Family and Friends, It hardly seems possible that it’s only been a week since we said our goodbyes to Kerrie. It seems so long ago somehow, almost like a dream. I went back to work last night, with much trepidation, but things went well. Everyone was very kind and most people greeted me with a hug or a special smile or just a touch. It really helped as I felt I might have to face a gauntlet of sympathy and didn’t know if I could handle it. And it was very busy, which made the night go fast, I never did start to nod off at the desk like…