Monday, August 27th.. 6:40pm
Today HAS been a rotten day. Spent most of the afternoon laying on my bed and trying not to re-live everything from July 27th. No matter how hard I tried to shut it out, the pictures just kept popping back in my head. My heart was pounding so much, at 3:30pm, that it was difficult to breath.. and I wondered what Mom, Dad and Ron were doing… but just couldn’t bring myself to get off the bed and call them.
I will call them later tonight…
I’ve been thinking about everyone today, and wondering if anyone but our family knew what today was, but mostly I’ve just been thinking about Kerrie…
I really miss my Ker Bear
7 Comments
Chris
I remebered what day today was. It doesn’t feel like a whole month. It feels just like yesterday. The big wheel of life just keeps rollin’ no matter what goes on around us. Sometimes I feel like I want to get off of the ride for a while, but noone can. I think that is why it is such a shock to our systems when something forces us to take another look at the world around us a re-evaluate so many of the things that we take for granted. Remember that time is a healer and a good night out with friends sure can be too!!! Remember to take care of yourself now. You know that is what Kerrie would be telling you to do anyway (She was so bossy!! Hard to use the word “was”.). Love you lots and I’ll talk to you later.
Chris
Teena
I remembered too
Thinking about you, Mom, Dad, Ron & the whole KAST family today & everyday.
Ron
how can you forget ….. there isnt a day that go’s by i havent thought its been a wee, two weeks 3 weeks. it cant be it doesnt seem right or possible then and now a month……. i go out everyday and check on my sunflowers as more and more bloom everyday talk to kerrie for a lil while remember the good times and say a prayer for all of the kast family and especially kerries immediate family members…….. lots of love many porayers ..
ron
Lori
Yesterday was a strange and somewhat confusing yet reassuring day. I’ve thought about Kerrie everyday. I’ve kicked myself constantly for not taking the time to get up to see her, regrets, so many. I talk to her now all the time, but yesterday I felt her talking to me. I had errands to do. Everyday life unfortunately must go on and so we trudge through. Everywhere I went yesterday were sunflowers in full bloom. Standing tall and proud and beautiful. I haven’t seen any around here at all. There’s been almost no rain here in TN. Flowers, grass and gardens are drying up. Record breaking heat, 4 weeks with temperatures in the high 90’s to 105. And yet among all the shriveled gardens and flower beds were all these beautiful sunflowers pulling my attention. It was disturbing yet comforting all at once. I know it’s hard to believe you’re not alone in your pain. You, Joan, Ron and Steve went through so much everyday. But we were there with you, hanging on your every post, waiting to hear how she was doing. Hoping, praying and worrying right along with you and your family. Hang on to us for strength. We’ve been there for you during the battle and have no intention of leaving you now.
Love to all of you.
Lori