Kerrie is comfortable and resting. We’ve had our moments with fever spikes, heart rate spikes, oxygen levels dropping, etc. but she is resting. At times she opens her eyes, and looks at us, but we’re not sure she actually sees us. I’d like to think she does.. I’d like to think she hears us too. The posts on the page have been so beautiful and have brought many tears to my eyes ( as if there weren’t enough there already).. I’m going to read them to her.. She may not be able to let me know she hears them, but in my heart I know she will.. and she will…

Dear Family and Friends, Despite all valiant efforts of the Health Care Team, and the endless fighting and determination on Kerrie’s part, the battle is not going in our favor. After discussions with the Team and Kerrie, it is felt that to continue to fight will only prolong things and there is little/no hope that Kerrie would ever recover. We are fighting against the inevitable.  Kerrie is tired… tired of fighting.. tired of being in pain… she doesn’t want to quit, but it’ really no longer a choice. Kerrie’s decision is to stop fighting and that’s what has been done. She is being kept comfortable, and can have her precious dilauded whenever she asks…

Things have been kind of up and down today.. especially Kerrie’s temperature. It keeps dropping below 100 and then going back up again. Blood cultures show she has an infection, which we already knew, but now they were able to pinpoint it. She’s septic ( which Mom says means she has an infection throughout her body)… and they believe the point of infection may have been her PICC line. The PICC was removed, and now her arm is more swollen than ever.. she still needs to get all her meds and transfusions, so they had to put in two periphial IV’s in her right hand. Her veigns are really bad,…

Kerrie’s fever was back up to 102 this morning.. the had ice on her to try to cool her down. Platellets were low, so did a Stat transfusion. She’s talking a little bit, but sometimes asking for things we can’t figure out. Uncle Jerry and Aunt Carolyn came to see her this morning.. she woke up and smiled for Uncle Jerry, but was pretty unresponsive most of the time. She’s sleeping now… Will update more later Jenn

Not much to tell today…  Kerrie’s fever has gone down and, at the moment, is holding at normal. She’s still a little labored with her breathing, but her oxygen level is improving. She slept most of the day, had blood and platellets, but was awake and a little more alert tonight. That lasted all of about 30 minutes.. but at least she was alert and talking for a little while. She has a strange rash on her hands, which the doctors are looking into, and her left arm is very swollen ( again.. doctors are looking into this), but she seems to be stable at the moment. Still sleeping alot,…

The phone rang at 5:18am.. and it was Mom. Almost afraid to answer.. but I did. “What time are you coming in today?”  She had told me not to leave last night and to wait until I heard from her today. “Well, if you are calling me at 5:00am to ask me when I am coming in then I would guess I am leaving right now.” “I think you’d better!” No time time pack, shower, etc. Threw things in a bag, grabbed two laundry baskets full of dirty clothes that I hadn’t had time to wash and got in the car. I guess I will have to wash clothes at Mom’s if…

Mom hasn’t had time to write… Kerrie is pretty sick, running a fever, and has us pretty worried. I’ll be heading home in the morning. Just keep praying and we’ll update when we can Jenn

Kerrie spiked a fever last night, so they took her for some chest x-rays this morning. Having some difficulty and funny sounds in her lungs..but hopefully the x-rays will show nothing. She was a little sick to her stomache last night, but the chemo doesn’t really seem to be me making her sick… yet… She’s getting ready to get a blood transfusion and, as soon as they give her the pre-meds, I will head back to Ohio. She’ll be asleep for the next few hours and, by the time she wakes up, Mom should be here. Dr. Jana gave us some good news today.. Kerrie’s White Blood Cell Count went…

Chemo is done for the day.. dinner is finished.. and Kerrie is sleeping. She seems a little weak today, but more “with it”. At least some of the time.  She was laying in bed, reading the paper and trying to do the crossword puzzle. It was almost funny to sit and watch her read the paper.. such a normal thing to do.. but then, as she was working on the crossword puzzle, she held up the pencil, asked me what is was and asked me what it was used for. Seems to be some confusion coming on.. but then, a few minutes later, she’d be fine again. Not much more…

This is going to semi-brief I  but will try to give as much info as I can.. Mom may choose to elaborate more later.  The results of the bone marrow biopsy are back and the Luekemia is growing very quickly. Bottom line.. Kerrie was given two choices ( again.. but this time only two)  1. Be at home, where she wants to be, and be kept comfortable for whatever time we may have together.. no transfusions.. not sure whether or not she would still get her meds if she chose this option. 2. Begin Chemo immediately. This would mean she could not go home and would be in the hospital at…