HERE I AM!!!!

Alright, alright.. enough nagging from my mother ( and my aunt 🙂 )… I am finally putting a post on here. It’s been  a very hectic few months and there has been little time for writing. I’ve meant to get on here, meant to give everyone updates…. but every time I would plan on putting on a post something would happen.. I would be ill, be working late, be out with that wonderful cowboy husband of mine or SOMETHING that would keep me from getting on the computer and putting on a post.

But… the nagging from my mother ( and my aunt) just got to be too much, so here I sit at 12:15am.. with my husband beside me, as we force ourselves to stay awake long enough to write something on here and make my mother ( and my aunt) happy 🙂

We can barely keep our eyes open… fighting sleep every second I type, but we wouldn’t want to dissapoint my mother ( or my aunt) so doing our best to get a post on here. Hmm.. now Fuat is snoring beside me, so I will have to give him a huge poke and make him wake up. If I am sitting here he can too 🙂

Well.. we really aren’t that tired (OK.. Fuat isn’t that tired, I am as exhausted as I always am…:) )  and we are determined to get something on here tonight.  If we didn’t it would be another 5 days before there was a chance to sit down and write.

I will try to update on a few things that I missed since the last post ( early August?). I will be brief on most things, since it is so late, but can maybe elaborate more when there is a chance to write later.

Chemo # 4… I didn’t really write much, because that was toward the end of July and THAT is Kerrie’s time.. I was not going to write a bunch of stuff about me during that week. We were too centered around remembering Kerrie then. Chemo #4 wasn’t too bad. Not much to even remember about it except that I was too ill to be able to go home, so that Fuat and I could be with Mom on July 27th.  My hair started growing back at this point and I didn’t look so bald.

Chemo # 5.. THAT was a bad one.. more hair on the top of my head.. but now the eyebrows and eyelashes decided to finally fall out.  Again.. # 5 was a bad one…I won’t say anything else about it.

Chemo # 6.. September 10th, 2010. The last one.. INSALLAH( GOD WILLING). It was rough, and I was ill, but the illness part didn’t last too long. The fatigue and exhaustion.. that’s a different story. I am three weeks out from chemo and still feel exhausted and want to sleep all the time. Dr. Mom  (and Dr. Fuat) tell me that it will take a while for that part of everything to disappear.  Each chemo, the side effects have lasted longer, so I guess it is normal that I am still feeling it.. but hoping it won’t last too much longer. Have even more hair on my head now.. enough that when people stare at me it’s because they aren’t sure if I have cancer or just decided to give myself a really short hair cut 🙂

We have so so so so so many pictures to share and will hopefully be posting soon. I know.. I have promised that for more than a month now, but we really will. Watch for them. They’re great!

What’s the plan now? Today I went for my first CT Scan and will meet with the Doctor next Thursday to get the results. As long as there is nothing serious, and the CT scan shows I am in remission with no sign of cancer, I will only have to see him every two months. Pretty sure I will have CT scans each time, but still waiting to find that out.  I will also have blood work done each time.

The prognosis is good.. so we are not going to worry too much. We know anything is possible, but continue to believe that good things are coming our way and this will all be over soon. INSALLAH ( GOD WILLING).

Time for sleep…. maybe when I wake up in the morning I will have eye lashes and eyebrows again, but if not at least I have more hair than Sinead O’connor ( Not much more.. but more )