Monday, January 29th

Well, the pillow is going to win out over the Yoga tonight. Just too darn tired.

James, I have no idea how you do this for a living.. I’ve been working on a web page for over a week now and it’s going to do me in. I suppose it I will be happy with it, once I’m finished, but what a load of work. At least I don’t have to do much of anything on the programming end.. just put all the data on all the pages ( I call my web designer for all the hard stuff 🙂 ), but it’s still not that easy ( and has kept me on my computer far longer than I ever want to be). I think I should start charging my job “Billable Hours” for all the time I have put into this thing.. It would almost be funny if I did send them a bill.
Mom had some news for me, when I called her tonight, and I’ll try to get it right.. but have been sitting at a computer for 14 1/2 hours.. eyes and fingers are getting really sore and starting to get hard to think straight.

Kerrie is having some kind of procedure in the morning. It’s not a colonoscopy, but something similiar to that, where she is going to have a small scope inserted into her. They want to take a look at her bowels and I think Mom said they were doing a biopsy. All the problems she’s been having may not be the Tube Feeding and could be caused by GVHD ( Graft Vs. Host disease.. in other words, my immune system rejecting her body). If this shows no GVHD, or no infection of some kind, then they will start looking at the tube feeding. I would think they would do this the other way around.. but what do I know?

Mom said they normally would not sedate someone for this, but she has insisted that Kerrie receive sedation. I can’t imagine having this done without sedation and there is no way in Hell Kerrie could go through this without it. Mom has assured me she will be there, and that this will not take place without her being sedated, but I still have my pessimistic side poking through and wondering.. what if they won’t let Mom in there with Kerrie? What if the doctor forgets he promised to sedate her or decides not to? I’m sure it won’t happen, but I can tell you the answer to those questions is that I will walk right out of my office, drive to Detroit and they will have one extremly pissed off, insanely irate sister to deal with.

Her Prep work for this is supposed to start around 5:00am and Mom promised to call me as soon as everything was finished. With as exhausted as I am, I’m not sure I’ll be able to sleep tonight… too worried about her and worried about the sedation. I know it will be fine, but it’s my job to worry!
Once I hear some info from Mom, I’ll stop working on my wonderful, little web page project and put a post up.

Keep your fingers crossed that she gets through this painlessly, that I get some sleep.. and that I don’t have to make a drive to Detroit tomorrow to give the doctors a piece of my overactive mind.

Jenn