Four Years Ago Today

Hello Kast Family,

Today has been a day of memories. Four years ago a dream had come true. Kerrie had a new birthday. The day of her bone marrow transplant and a day to begin her life again. What a day it was. Jenn in the bone marrow center, hooked up to a machine that was filtering her white blood cells. Kerrie in her room waiting for her healing transplant. What excitment, what anxiety for all of us.

The rush through the hallways with Jenn to get her to Ker’s bedside to share her moment. Ker so sick she was hardly aware. Little did we know why she was so tired and listless. But she was watching and smiled when we all sang Happy Birthday to her. Jenn holding her hand.

I have moved to my new home. Today I made it home when I put up my picture gallery. It’s a silly gallery. It’s on the refrigerator.  It’s pictures of Kerrie and Jenn and her brother and his family and some poems and sayings from my support group. But it finally made my new place a home. It’s what belongs here and what makes it mine and Kerrie’s too.

The second bedroom is Ker’s. And the bathroom across the hall is her’s too. I guess it will always be that way for me. So come visit some time, you can sleep in her room and use her bath. She won’t mind. She told me so.

It has been a rough day today. More so than others. Some times the memories come hard and fast. Jenn and I talked for a long time tonight. We think of so many things. What we have missed. What we wish we could have done differently and what we will do differently in the future.

Just remember, cherish your family and your friends. Make every day matter. And alway love one another. It’s so important. Kerrie say so.  🙂

Love you all

Joan