Missing Kerrie – www.kast2006.com

I really miss her sometimes. I always miss her.. but sometimes more than others..On those days, I want to scream out to the entire world that I miss Kerrie and I love her.. and, really, the only way I can do that is on this page. So, I’m screaming out to all of you that I really miss her.

I listened to her voicemail messages on my phone this morning. I don’t do that very often, because it hurts so much, but today I just felt the need to do that. They’ve been there for so long. Some almost a year and a half.. but it’s nice to know they are there if I need to hear her. Her voice is so stranged and fragile.. but I can hear the love in it. Knowing how difficult it was for her to even speak the few words in those messages makes them my greatest treasure.

If I have to continue to press “save” for the next 20 years, until we find a way to take them off the phone and put them onto a CD ( or whatever is around in 20 years) I will continue to hit that little button.

I miss you Ker-bear. I miss you and I love you so much.

Jenn

8 Comments

Jeannine

September 10, 2008 at 10:50 pm

I save voice mail messages on my cell too Jenn, so when I am feeling alone and sad and maybe a little worthless, I can replay them and let the voice fill my senses with their love, let it wrap around me bring me back to the Truth… we only have right now, this moment… and we need to pay attention and savor it. Be Here Now.
Love you,
Aunt Jeannine

Chris

September 16, 2008 at 9:38 pm

I miss Kerrie too. I know I haven’t been on this site in a while. I just want you to know that I haven’t taken the orange (it’s now yellow) band off of my wrist since I first put it on. I played in an alumni football game this summer and thought I should take it off in case it got caught on a facemask or something. I thought of Kerrie and thought different. I kept it on and stayed injury free. I think of her often. I think of all of you. I went to Michigan Adventure this year and I could not stop thinking of our trips to Cedar Point and riding the log ride time after time at the end of the day. I love you all and think of you often. Take care.

Chris

Jeannine

September 10, 2008 at 10:50 pm

I save voice mail messages on my cell too Jenn, so when I am feeling alone and sad and maybe a little worthless, I can replay them and let the voice fill my senses with their love, let it wrap around me bring me back to the Truth… we only have right now, this moment… and we need to pay attention and savor it. Be Here Now.
Love you,
Aunt Jeannine
Chris

September 16, 2008 at 9:38 pm

I miss Kerrie too. I know I haven’t been on this site in a while. I just want you to know that I haven’t taken the orange (it’s now yellow) band off of my wrist since I first put it on. I played in an alumni football game this summer and thought I should take it off in case it got caught on a facemask or something. I thought of Kerrie and thought different. I kept it on and stayed injury free. I think of her often. I think of all of you. I went to Michigan Adventure this year and I could not stop thinking of our trips to Cedar Point and riding the log ride time after time at the end of the day. I love you all and think of you often. Take care.

Chris