Saturday, February 3rd

Didn’t go to Michigan this weekend and feeling terrible about it. The plan was to have me stay home next weekend, so I could get some things done before my next recruiting trip, but Mom suggested I stay home this weekend instead. Didn’t go to Michigan, last night, due to another obligation and was going to drive up today. I would have to leave early tomorrow, so it makes sense that I just wait until next weekend.. but I am very homesick for my sister. Dad’s been snowed in, again, and can’t make it this weekend.. so, she won’t have all the visitors she was looking forward to. Kerrie, please forgive me. I swear I will make it up to you next weekend.

Mom says she’s still doing better, but Ron noticed a definate change in her last night. He feels she’s losing her spirit.. I’m hoping she’s just tired. They’ve been getting her out of bed more often, so she could be really tired. That’s what I’ll keep telling myself.
Ron and I ( and I am sure everyone else) think what Kerrie has already done has been amazing… we both would have given up a long time ago, just said “enough is enough” and begged for it all to be over.

We can’t blame her for not wanting to fight this all the time, but it scares me that she appears ( to Ron) to be getting more depressed and distant.
Mom’s with her now, so I’ll wait to see what Mom thinks and see if she sees the same change in Kerrie. Maybe we don’t see it, because we are with her so much and it just seems “normal” to us. I hope that’s the case and that she really isn’t losing more of her will to keep going.
God I miss my sister…