Remembering..the days until July 27th

This is a rough week for my family… too much remembering.. I know all of us: Mom, Dad, Ron.. Me.. have been remembering what we were each doing 3 years ago over the past few days, today and tomorrow…

I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it..

Two days ago would have been the day that mom called me at 5:00am and told me to come to Michigan right away. I was in the car 15 minutes later.. Got to Kerrie’s room and she was there with Mom and our Cousin Kathy. Kerrie couldn’t remember my name when I walked in, but she got so happy and just started crying “It’s here… It’s here…”  Yes Ker Bear! I’m here… I’m here. I will never forget those words or the look on her face when she was saying “It’s here”. 

Yesterday would have been the day Mom and Dad were out in the hallway in the hospital and Kerrie told me she liked my friends that were at the end of the bed.. No one was there.. I asked her if they were here and she said “Yes and No”.. I asked her if we knew them and she said “Yes and No.. but they are nice”… I was so glad they were nice.. but it also told me what was coming.

I was so sure then and am now.. that is was Kerrie’s angels coming to help her make the transition.  I knew it the minute she said she liked my friends….  I knew that’s what it was and I remember looking at the end of her bed, looking at “them” even though I could not see them and asking them not to take her yet.

Today would have been the day the doctors told Kerrie, Mom and I that nothing was working… I don’t like to think about what was said and what happened within the next hour., and the hours after that, so I won’t write about that.. but today was the day the treatment stopped… and tomorrow…

Tomorrow, July 27th,  will be the 3 year anniversary of the day Kerrie left us.  Please think of her at 3:30pm. 

I am sure Mom will be at the cemetary and I am hoping Ron, and maybe even Grandma will be there with her to. I couldn’t make it this year.. Fuat and I tried.. but had chemo a few days ago, flights are outrageous.. and would have only been able to come in for the one day, so just couldn’t do it. We will be there in spirit and one the phone…  Dad is living in Vegas now and not able to make it in either.. but he too will be there in heart and in spirit.

I wonder if Kerrie will give mom a fight with the balloons again this year or if Mom will get to have her balloon launch the way she wants to 🙂

Please think of my family, and my Ker-Bear…. these days are not for me… Though I will be back with a few funny stories… these days are for my family, my Ker-Bear.. my best friend… I miss her so much.

I love you Kerrie Lee Andree… My Ker-Bear. I love you