Thursday Night

Well, tomorrow is the big day…. meeting with Dr. Jana and the team to discuss what the future holds for Kerrie and what options we have to decide upon. I can’t sleep tonight and I know Kerrie can’t (and hasn’t) either. She is very aware of how seriously ill she is. And she is very frustrated at not being able to articulate it. She spends a lot of time “thinking” but is not able to express exactly what she is thinking about. ” Oh, never mind” she’ll say when she can’t find the words.

The last few days have been very teary for all of us. A couple of days ago when we talked about the upcoming meeting Kerrie broke down and said “this means it’s all over”. No Ker, we don’t know that yet. You’re still strong and you have to keep fighting.

Family Birth Center Friends……..after Donna came to visit and we talked about all the changes happening to you all Kerrie had to go for an xray. She was laying on the cart with her eyes closed and I asked her if she was sleeping or thinking.

“Thinking”         What are you thinking about?

“Am I still going to be with them?”        Who Kerrie, your friends at the FBC?

“Yes”         Of course you will Kerrie, you will always be with them, you will always be their friend.

“But will I go with them?”         Well, Kerrie, when Dr. Jana says you can go back to work I bet they’ll figure out some way for you to come work with them.

“OK” sigh and back to thinking.

Kerrie misses everyone………. call her if you can. she can’t always answer her phone, but who knows, you may luck out and she’ll be able to talk to you. Come visit if you can. I know she enjoys her company and she has got to be pretty tired of just mostly me.

And please, send lots of thoughts, prayers and energy our way on Friday. Ker needs all your strength and support.

Will let you know what is happening as soon as we know…. Thanks for being there for her and for us.

Lots of Love

Joan