Thursday, March 15 11:30pm

Just got to Mom’s…

The bed’s in the living room, all made up, and the little night stand next to it.. meds, etc. in the bathroom, new sheets & pillows, new towels, etc… and everythings ready to go. Well, everything except the fridge… no food in it :)  We’ll have to do some shopping.

Simple things like shopping are going to take on a whole new meaning once Kerrie’s home. If I’m not home, Mom won’t be able to just head out to the store. Little things everyone takes for granted will have to be planned carefully and will only be able to be done when others can help. But, I suppose this will all work itself out.

Mom worked from 5:00pm last night  – 5:00am this morning, came home.. did work around the house.. slept for two hours and then did more work to get things ready. She’s exhausted, but I doubt she’ll sleep much tonight.

Kerrie’s excited to come home, we’re excited to have her home.. and all three of us are nervous about Mom and I suddenly being her biggest caregivers. For more than 8 months she’s had doctors, nurses and aids catering to her every whim… and lots of them. Now it will just be us ( and an occasional in home health person).. My biggest fear is not having to learn how to hook up her feeding tube, start her antibiotics or even draw blood… my biggest fear is that she will become very lonely. We aren’t going to have the constant rush of doctors and nurses.. and friends close by to drop in whenever they happen to be near her room. I don’t want this house to become like solitary confinement. I worried about her being lonely at the hospital and it worries me here even more. But, at least it’s home…

Tomorrow is scary and exciting at the same time. We’ll let you know how it goes.

Jenn